If you’re working hard to yell less, regulate your nervous system, and respond more calmly—and you’re still yelling—I want you to hear this first:
You are not alone.
And you are not failing.
This is one of the most painful places parents land: putting in real effort, learning new tools, trying so hard—and still finding yourself hooked, triggered, and raising your voice more than you want to.
If that’s where you are, it makes sense. And you’re human.
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Change Is Not a Light Switch
When my kids were small, I was overwhelmed and burnt out. I wanted to respond peacefully or playfully, but instead I found myself caught in a yelling pattern—followed by overwhelming shame. Yelling was the last thing I wanted to do.
I remember trying so hard to change.
At one point, inspired by Dr. Laura Markham’s work, I made myself a behavior chart. She suggests not making one for your child and instead trying it out for yourself to see how it feels. The idea was simple: a smiley face for days I didn’t yell, an X for days I did.
I wish I could tell you it worked.
It didn’t.
I ended up with far more X’s than smiley faces, and instead of helping, it just made me feel worse. I already wanted to stop yelling more than anything. Seeing my “failures” on the refrigerator didn’t create change—it created more shame.
What I’ve learned since then is this:
Deep change takes time.
Why Your Brain Keeps Going Back to Yelling
There’s a reason you may still be yelling even while making changes.
When stress is high and yelling has been your default response, your brain has built a strong pathway:
High stress → yell
That pathway is deep. It’s been reinforced over and over again.
Creating a new pathway—
High stress → pause
High stress → walk away
High stress → self-compassion or a grounding practice
takes repetition. A lot of it.
Change isn’t linear. It often looks messy. But if you’re trending in a calmer direction over time, that matters more than perfection.
Shift the Focus From Your Child to Yourself
One of the most helpful shifts you can make is this:
Focus less on your child’s behavior and more on what’s happening inside you in those difficult moments.
It’s so easy to think:
If my child would just stop doing this, I wouldn’t be yelling.
That thought is understandable—but we actually have far more influence over our own nervous system than we do over our child’s behavior.
And here’s the bonus:
When you’re more regulated, your child’s nervous system has a better chance of settling too.
So instead of asking What do they need to change?
Try asking:
- What’s happening in me right now?
- What is making it hard for me to stay calm in this moment?
What Do You Need When You’re Not Okay?
If your nervous system is already overwhelmed, change becomes much harder. This is where support matters.
Some proactive ways to support yourself include:
- getting emotional support (a friend, therapist, coach, or listening partner)
- prioritizing sleep (even small improvements help)
- moving your body to complete the stress response cycle
- practicing mindfulness or meditation, even briefly
- shifting from self-criticism to self-compassion
You don’t need to do all of these.
Choose the lowest-hanging fruit—the one thing that feels most doable right now.
Three Ways to Stay Motivated When Progress Feels Slow
- Keep a Simple Journal
Tracking your mood, your stressors, and your wins—even briefly—can help counter the feeling that everything is always terrible.
Photos of small, positive moments can be especially powerful reminders when your brain is stuck in threat mode.
- Don’t Do This Alone
I’ll say it again because it matters: don’t do this alone.
Supportive people can help you remember your progress when you forget it. They can reflect back moments of calm and growth that your inner critic overlooks.
- Practice Self-Compassion After You Mess Up
Self-compassion doesn’t erase what happened—but it does change what happens next.
Instead of:
I can’t believe I yelled again.
Try:
This is a hard moment. I’m doing the best I can. May I be gentle with myself and my child in this tough moment?
Self-compassion is an antidote to shame. And shame is one of the biggest barriers to real change.
A Gentle Reminder
You don’t have to stop yelling overnight.
You don’t have to get it right every time.
Notice your wins—big or small:
- a longer fuse
- a pause before reacting
- stepping away instead of escalating
- repairing afterward
Those moments matter.
Want to Go Deeper?
I talk more about why change takes time, how habits form in the brain, and how to stay motivated even with setbacks in this episode of the Compassionate Heart Mindful Life podcast. If listening feels supportive right now, you’re welcome to continue there.
🎧 Listen to the full podcast episode here.
If you’d like ongoing encouragement, you’re also invited to join my newsletter, where I share weekly support and access to short, doable guided practices—like the Pause and Regroup audio for moments when you feel close to losing it.
You are not broken.
You are learning.
And that matters.
The light in me sees the light in you.
Be well.
Michelle